Reading Jake had gotten easier over the years, of course. There was a certain amount of focus needed to do a good job--a high level of attention to the little ticks, shifts, and starts that couldn't be casually glanced at yet. Her mind slightly clouded, it didn't come through with the same general clarity, but the shrug was surely loud enough.
"...can..."
She shouldn't have asked him to come. She should have let him know it was happening and then let it hang without any sense of obligation attached. She should have cut this out carefully and dissected this piece of herself entirely from their friendship.
But that wouldn't have been her. That wouldn't have been her anymore, oddly enough, than this Challenge had been her. There was somewhere in the grey that felt difficult to articulate but important to share all the same.
It took another few heartbeats of not quite being able to look Jake in the face before she could take another stab at words.
"...can we-- talk, though? Maybe... outside?"
Away from this space. Away from the odd oppression of the castle walls. Somewhere green and quiet and less full of the awareness that she had spooked the hell out of one of the people she cared the most about in the Deck.
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Date: 2016-03-23 11:23 am (UTC)Reading Jake had gotten easier over the years, of course. There was a certain amount of focus needed to do a good job--a high level of attention to the little ticks, shifts, and starts that couldn't be casually glanced at yet. Her mind slightly clouded, it didn't come through with the same general clarity, but the shrug was surely loud enough.
"...can..."
She shouldn't have asked him to come. She should have let him know it was happening and then let it hang without any sense of obligation attached. She should have cut this out carefully and dissected this piece of herself entirely from their friendship.
But that wouldn't have been her. That wouldn't have been her anymore, oddly enough, than this Challenge had been her. There was somewhere in the grey that felt difficult to articulate but important to share all the same.
It took another few heartbeats of not quite being able to look Jake in the face before she could take another stab at words.
"...can we-- talk, though? Maybe... outside?"
Away from this space. Away from the odd oppression of the castle walls. Somewhere green and quiet and less full of the awareness that she had spooked the hell out of one of the people she cared the most about in the Deck.