[for Jayden] cara mio addio

[lowtohigh]

She wakes up most mornings fully convinced of the fact that she's done with silly, stupid mistakes. She ends a statistically significant number of days having managed to maintain that in the most important arenas.

But it's not every day.

And it's certainly not every night. There are still nights when the idea of sitting at home and doing work drives her up a wall--when the idea of going to see her brother for a 'classy' evening of wasting money on something 'useful' like the arts feels just as terrible as sitting home alone. There are nights when she asks the driver to wait around the corner and pretend he doesn't know where she's going so she can actually breathe deep something other than the rigidity of the life she's been building since Elisha returned and got her back on track.

There can't be anything so wrong with it, surely. It rarely, if ever, bleeds back over into her days. She always drags herself out of bed in the morning, whether she'd fallen into it at 10pm or 4am the night before. She always sits through classes and shows up for work with the same fierce, determined smile. She barely ever thinks of what might have happened the night before once she's got herself set for forward motion again.

Admittedly, sometimes she gets texts at work from numbers she definitely hadn't gotten at the university or the lab or any of her brother's little get-togethers. Jayden's number certainly didn't come from any vetted point of contact. It surprises her, really, how easy it is to extend something of her daytime self to a nighttime number. It's not a line she's really ever blurred before.

But he's coming to the aquarium. She's invited him. Almost like sleepwalking, she's explained to her supervisor that she wants a floor shift out in the actual building rather than holed away doing research. Idly scanning the crowd at the building's tall cement entrance, she wonders vaguely if she's even recognizable like this--flat shoes, hair tied tightly back, barely a stitch of makeup on and her wits obviously about her.

It's entirely possible he'll just walk straight past her. There are large signs for the penguins near the door, after all.

Comments

[lowtohigh]

How is this a surprise? [She'll mirror the sliding to the edge of her own booth, but she'll also be holding out a slightly imperious hand to be helped back to her feet.

(In fairness, her heels have a certain severity to them which require minor stabilization assistance while changing heights. In less fairness, she'd probably ask for a hand up in flats too.)]

Does Russian only have one word for everything?

[immigrantpunk]

It just seems like a lot.

[And that she seems to know them all on the fly like that is really impressive. He gladly takes her hand and helps her to her feet.]

No, but... I dunno, I think English likes to overdo it sometimes.

[lowtohigh]

[Her fingers stay linked entirely contentedly in his even after she's on her feet again. Time now for swinging their linked hands with genuine pleasure.]

I think we prefer to call it 'precision of language.'

[immigrantpunk]

[A warmth blossoms in his chest, the hopeful realization that things are going really well, aren't they? He tosses their trash in the designated bin, then holds open the door for her, grinning.]

Okay, fine. But why say "masticate" when you can say "chew?" What's the difference? If you masticate, do you chew things differently, or like, forever?

[lowtohigh]

[He has, apparently, much more game when he isn't overthinking it. Hopefully he'll stay in such a fashion at least until she's started getting tipsy.

For now, she's certainly going to be grinning as she leads the way out the door.] You'd have to ask a linguistics major. I'm pretty sure it's just the word we use when we're feeling pretentious.

[immigrantpunk]

[He lets out a short laugh and nods. Night has fallen as they've been inside the restaurant, and a chill in the air makes him glad he wore a sweatshirt.]

Okay, pretentious. I'll keep that in mind next time I wanna sound smart.

[lowtohigh]

It's a crucial part of the American college experience, mm?

[Because they're both in college. Completely 100%.

But they're not both equally warmly dressed. She's fine in the bracing air for the moment, but skirts and slinky tops aren't anything close to warm enough for an extended wait outside a club. Hopefully it's a crucial part of being an American gentleman to offer a lady the warm clothes off one's back.]

[immigrantpunk]

[OH RIGHT, THAT. He completely forgot. A pang of guilt hits him, and he thinks, wildly, that maybe he should tell her. But things are going so well, and telling her is probably a surefire way to get a cold brushoff and have to slink home on his own.

Later. He'll tell her later, when the timing is better.]

Heh, yeah.

[He does notice, after a minute, just how much of her might be open to the wind.]

You warm enough?

[lowtohigh]

[Surely delaying the inevitable is going to make it better. Surely these lies of omission turning into actual lying isn't going to be a problem.

Her laugh is just a little chilled herself as she shrugs slightly.] I'll be all right if we get back inside sooner than later. Or was that just a set-up for a terrible pickup line?

[immigrantpunk]

[Jayden isn't exactly the king of wise decisions. He tries not to choke in response to her quip. STAY COOL, YOU WERE DOING SO WELL. What would smooth college-age Jayden say?]

Just letting you know I'm here for whatever you need.

[Paired with some intense eye contact. GO GET IT BOY.]

[lowtohigh]

Boo. [Not that she isn't grinning and squeezing his hand a little tighter.] Come on. Hit me with your best shot.

[The date is already on; why not let the terrible pickup lines that won't get to be used properly run free?]

[immigrantpunk]

[His eyebrows go skyward again.]

With what? A bad pickup line? [Uhhh....] If I said I liked your body, would you hold it against me?

[Any decent delivery is completely undermined by the fact that he can't stop laughing as he says it.]

[lowtohigh]

[It's understandable. It's hard to tell if she's laughing at the words or the fact he can't seem to stop laughing at himself.]

How often does that one work?

[immigrantpunk]

I don't know, I've never tried it. I'm gonna go with probably never.

[lowtohigh]

You'd be a terrible scientist. Trying things you're pretty sure will fail is-- at least 25% of the fun of life. [There's a slight shiver up her spine, but she ignores it in favour of elbowing his ribs.] And 'Heisenberg was wrong.' That's worked on me before.

[immigrantpunk]

I know, but there's taking chances and then there's probably getting slapped.

[His mom raised him to treat girls better than that, okay. When she elbows him he laughs, trying to slip his arm around her waist and pull her a bit closer. Body heat will surely keep her warm.]

Oh yeah?

[He's missing the reference, but he's a little preoccupied by the thought of what happens when pickup lines work.]

[lowtohigh]

[It's not the smoothest thing in the universe, perhaps, but she'll roll with it. He is warmer than the air around her, after all; and it's rarely a terrible idea to appear affiliated before walking into a club.]

Yeah. I mean, good or bad? I think they're really all about the delivery.

[immigrantpunk]

[He's not as experienced with this as he'd like to appear, but so far that hasn't deterred her. He just hopes he's getting points for eagerness.]

So what's the best kind of delivery? Probably not laughing, huh?

[lowtohigh]

I mean, probably. But with a sense of humour to it, you know? [Take notes, Jayden.] Like you know it's bad, but you're determined to give it a whirl.

[immigrantpunk]

[Oh, he is taking notes. He is taking all the notes. He forces himself to regain his composure, and gives her a deep, soulful look. With the barest hint of a smirk and a good-natured tone, he tries again.]

Hey, if I said I liked your body, would you hold it against me?

[lowtohigh]

[Oh. Well. That's nice, isn't it.

It's absolutely got an amused spark in her eyes, at least, as she bumps her hip against his.] Better. Practice in the mirror, nerd.

[immigrantpunk]

Awww.

[He was having a hard time keeping a straight face anyway. He shakes his head, his hand creeping up to her shoulder.]

You mean I can't just rely on honesty and my dumb sense of humor?

[lowtohigh]

[She won't swat him away from the touch. That's surely points in favour of terrible pickup lines.]

Nah. That's how you keep a girl. Getting a girl requires more posturing.

[immigrantpunk]

Oh, well, okay then. I'm learning a lot tonight.

[He throws her another smirk, and turns a corner, bringing them to the line for the club. He squints and tries to see to the front door.]

I can't tell if it's the same bouncer, can you?

[lowtohigh]

[Her attention can't be lifted to see. There's simply a noncommittal noise on her throat as she briefly ducks her attention to herself again. Lipstick appears seemingly from nowhere to be fixed on her lips. Her skirt needs to be shimmied up slightly and her shirt needs to be nudged down a bit.]

Just keep your head down either way.